My husband pointed out something interesting in scripture yesterday, and I realized there’s a parallel in the infertility journey.
As the Israelites were heading toward the Jordan River and into the Promised Land, Moses reminded them that there would be specific geographic boundaries for this new homeland. It would be bordered by certain rivers, seas, gorges and hill country. It wouldn’t be just anywhere — someplace they’d call good enough. “Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon,” he told them, “and from the Euphrates River to the western sea. “
What’s so interesting about that?
God’s people were being led to a specific destination, a particular future chosen for them by the God who’d planned and overseen every step of their journey.
How is that like the infertility journey?
You may not feel as if you’re headed anywhere specific. You may not sense yourself making forward progress at all. But there is a precise destination, already seen clearly by the God who guides your steps, out there on your life’s horizon. Of course, you can choose to quit traveling any time. You can choose to pitch a tent at any point on your journey and announce, “I’ve had it. This is it for me. I’m stopping here.”
But, that’s not where God’s leading you. And His very best won’t be waiting there.
In fact, if you choose a stopping point outside the parameters of His perfect will for you, you may end up settling somewhere that was never meant to be your future. Of couse, God won’t stop you from making a life for yourself there. Some of the Israelites chose not to cross the Jordan – even though they were a stone’s throw from their promised future. Just like them, you have free will. So, it’s your choice. But, He’s definitely leading you to a very specific destination. A very best future.
Moses told God’s people, “… the eyes of the Lord your God are continually on it from the beginning of the year to its end.” It was their destination. He wanted to remind the weary travelers that their journey would end in abundant blessings – but only if they followed God’s lead and made a life for themselves within the boundaries of His perfect plan.
The same holds true for you.
This journey may be nothing like what you expected. It may seem as if you’ve been wandering in the wilderness, searching for the future you thought God had planned for you, forever. It may seem as if you’re further and further from the dream that your heart has clung to — as if it’s past time to take charge of this endless journey and bring it to a close. You can… but I hope you won’t.
You are not lost to God. He has been guiding your steps all along, leading you toward the future He planned for you. Don’t insist on following your preconceived ideas about how long this should take, or which route will get you where you want to go. Trust that God knows what He’s doing – and why – and that He’s working in and through your circumstances, even now.
Don’t let impatience keep you from His very best for you. The Promised Land of parenthood is not as far off as you think. More importantly, the Lord knows exactly where it is — and exactly when you’ll get there. Trust Him enough to keep pressing on, anticipating the joy of reaching the destination He’s always had in mind for you.
When you reach your Promised Land — when years’ worth of effort, and countless hours worth of worry, finally come to an end — you will know it was worth trusting God’s perfect plan.
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