When the words “Every one of you is already pregnant with hope” first slipped out of my mouth at a Bible study for infertile couples, every woman in the room turned to stare at me. What did I mean? What did I know that they didn’t know? Was there cause for hope? Was “pregnant with hope” a step toward becoming a parent?
As they waited for me to say more, I begged God for help: ‘They want answers. What do I say now?!’
Any time I’ve reflected back on that moment, I’ve remembered the mild panic I felt when I realized I had voiced what I’d been thinking. I’d resisted saying anything aloud because, as a guest at the Bible study, I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. But, God wanted me to draw attention to Him. He wanted me to confidently proclaim His faithfulness. So, He nudged me until the words leaped from my lips: “You are already pregnant with hope.” And then, He delivered.
Within a year, 100% of the couples in that group conceived or adopted – and Pregnant with Hope was born.
I thought about that moment again this morning – of knowing deep in my spirit that God had made a promise He intended to keep, and telling that to people who were hungry for good news – but saw it from an entirely different perspective. I was reading about Moses sending twelve scouts to explore the Promised Land, and I was struck by the parallel to this particular moment in the infertility journey.
God instructed Moses to send the men to explore the land “which I am giving….” In other words, God made clear that the land would be theirs. Even so, when the men returned, ten of the twelve delivered negative reports. Yes, it looked desirable and yes, they’d love to live there – BUT…. It wouldn’t be easy, they predicted. There would be opposition, they feared. They were intimidated, they admitted. And this wasn’t a sure thing, they concluded. Bottom line: Their desire and God’s promise weren’t enough to overcome their lack of faith. They predicted failure.
But, two of the ten scouts disagreed. They were unconditionally enthused. They wanted God’s best, they knew it had been promised, and they were ready to march into their future confident that it held victory.
Guess who made it to the Promised Land? Only those two scouts. The ones who followed God’s leading, trusted His promise, and believed “which I am giving” meant “It will be so.” They did not choose to focus on fear, but on faith. And it made all the difference. God rewarded those who chose to believe in His faithfulness. And those who did not? They got what they expected: disappointment.
I firmly believe there is a moment in every infertility journey when God makes a promise and plants it as a seed of hope in our hearts. What determines whether that seed will grow into a promise fulfilled? Whether our hearts are fertile soil. Whether we are ready to believe His word over what we imagine could defeat us. Whether we are willing to trust Him over what we see and know others fear.
As with the Promised Land scouts, our faith plays a decisive role in deciding our journey’s destination. That’s not a message of blame; it’s a word of hope. You can trust the One who knows exactly where your Promised Land is — and how to get there. It has always been His intention to lead you there, and to delight In your arrival.
Are you ready to move forward with confident hope?
Yes! I’m ready! 🙂 During this lenten season, the Lord has asked me to fast from fear…and, in turn, HOPE for a good future. Your previous post about the promised land has been so helpful in encouraging the FAITH that I’ve needed to truly turn from fear and believe God is GOOD. Thanks again Susan!