“If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself.”
If we have anything to be grateful for in the midst of infertility, it is this: even if we are faithless, God will remain faithful. He cannot be otherwise. We can reject His faithfulness. We can deny it. We can insist it is not real because we are not getting what we want when we want it. But, that does not change the nature of God.
He can only be who and what He is. Faithful. Always.
And so, we can exhale.
We don’t have to understand this suffering. We don’t have to feign gratitude when what we feel most are hurt and anger. We don’t have to earn God’s favor or the blessing we desperately desire.
In fact, we can’t.
All we can do is wrap our arms around the gift of grace and whisper, “Thank you.” We are loved despite our imperfections. We are going to be blessed, despite our many failures. We are pregnant with hope, and God intends to grow that seed into the reality of a family — in His perfect timing.
Even if we are faithless – which we so often are when tests come back negative, numbers are discouraging, bleeding starts and hope is dying – even then, God is faithful. He walks with us to comfort, strengthen and guide. He sends encouragers to speak His truth into our hearts. And He continues to nurture the seed of hope that He planted in our hearts for a reason.
So, whatever you do, or don’t, believe…. believe this: He will remain faithful, for He cannot be otherwise.
Thank God.
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After 2 1/2 years of infertility, we finally conceived with our first IVF attempt. Your blog has been an inspiration during this whole journey. I found that I had identified myself as infertile… and once we became pregnant, I wondered who I was! It consumed me. And still, with a strong heartbeat and no reason to doubt, there is fear, what-ifs…. I am 16 weeks now and still have not purchased a single item for this baby because I just want to be sure! So, while we are pregnant, the journey is still difficult and it’s hard to trust and to choose to rest in God’s promises. SO thankful for your blog to remind me where to run when I am scared to know I’m not alone in this journey!